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Today is Ryan’s three month anniversary.
Not the kind you celebrate with excitement... like a birth or dating or marriage...
A time to just stop And give pause And think and laugh and cry and remember
This summer has been a whirlwind... A yin/yang of happy and sad, busy and total silence, raw and numb...
The boys coming home
Our “family-moon”...
The emotions of returning to “life”...
The reality that the distractions are gone and our day to day is settling back...
And the uncertainty of what that will all look like...
But having just completed my Teacher Training at Powerflow Yoga I have learned so much about the “ata”...the present... the now.
So today...
in this moment...
I am choosing to think of Ryan’s laugh despite my ache to hear it again.
I am choosing to picture him with lemurs jumping on his head like we experienced on vacation and not let myself fill with the empty space.
I am watching him sign “Jeff is scared of lizards” when all the huge iguanas crawled across our path.
And, I am appreciating having felt him... literally soul to soul as I watched the sun set over the horizon on the plane ride home in place of the guttural sobs that initially rose from within me.
Today.
Now.
I and choosing joy.
I am choosing happy.
I am choosing resilience.
I am choosing gratitude.
And yes it is hard.
And yes I’m even a little tired...
But that is how Ryan lived...
in the “now”
and with pure joy.
So to honor Ryan today... I am so excited to share some news...
We...my whole family is excited to share this news...
In July, the Warter Strong Foundation became official and today... we are proudly launching our website... in honor of Ryan... in honor of Oren... in honor of being in the moment and appreciating all we have...
I could not have begun to put this together without the help of Jeff- he literally was the backbone to making all the details happen and continues daily to be “the wind behind my kite...” (to quote a fellow yoga Teacher Trainee)...
Please take a moment to think of Ryan...
Take a moment to breathe and be present.
Take a moment to think of something that brings you joy...
gratitude...a happy heart.
And please visit www.warterstrong.org
Stay tuned for upcoming Fundraising events...
I am so proud to be starting down this amazing path and know Oren and Ryan are beaming with pride